My [28/F] husband [29/M] and partner of 10 years told me he’s gay and I’m still here

Update from my previous post.
Thanks Dating.mobi for being my words of advice and support on a topic I am still temporarily bound to secrecy with.
I’ve been having some great sessions with my councillor and after a month of misery, heart ache and anxiety fuelled issues - I’m feeling much stronger today.
But - it’s a hard road ahead. 2019 will be a bumpy road, but one where I discover myself and who I was before I gave my heart and soul to this man who broke it.
We are still together, he seems to think that we will be fine but I’ve been very honest with him in how I feel. I defended myself against him wanting me to change to suit his needs, we’ve stopped trying for a baby (one because I’m finding it difficult in the bedroom now and two because the security I had is 100% gone) I told him I’m giving myself a year - tops, to decide if I truly want to stay. I also said I want him to do the same, if he does 100% still love and yearn for me and me alone he needs to fight for me, if he’s truly fully gay and not bi/confused, then I know this won’t happen - it wouldn’t be good for either of us....
He’s told me that now I know he’s into guys that he hasn’t felt into them as much and that he’s only been feeling horny and yearning love from me instead of his porn. He also tells me the crush he had has gone and he’s pushed that person away, but I don’t think I can fully believe that right now.
I guess mentally, I’ve already decided that it’s not going to work out between us. We’re best mates still so we can handle this being a slow process, falling out of love while we slowly untangle our lives together is how I see the year going.... we’re about to spend our two week Christmas break together without our families, but his need for always having friends around us now will make it easy to get through.... I’m finding I like having others around now too, it’s like my heart is hardening :( I also worry that I’m going to hurt him if I decide to go (I know it’s silly considering how much I’m hurting now)
This is the most ****ed outcome I could have ever pictured for my deluded ‘happily ever after...’ I’m still processing this but I hope that him and I can both find happiness. I hope the hurt becomes easier to deal with and I hope that he never breaks the heart of another unsuspecting woman again after me. (due to the fact he still yearns a “normal†family and doesn’t want his family to ever know he’s gay) but those are his issues now, not mine.
2019 is about me, I’m normally so selfless but I have to put myself first now.
TLDR: update My [28/F] husband [29/M] and partner of 10 years told me he’s gay and I’m still here - but perhaps not forever now.


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