Me [30 F] with my husband [30 M] of 5 years just got in a huge fight because I wouldn't go see my friends?

I have a group of friends that casually get together every Tuesday for wine and snacks. Most nights it's ladies within our compound, but one friend is hosting at her house which is about 15 minutes away from our compound.
I had mentioned to my husband yesterday I was thinking of going. I don't always go, and I missed it last week as well. The day is here, and I just don't feel like going. I've had a stressful day at work, my daughter has been an absolute terror, and my house is a ****ing mess. I am stressed to the max and while being social is good, I don't feel like drinking. Sometimes these turn into a booze-fest and I don't want to get drunk on a work night.
So my husband starts HOUNDING me about going. He was NOT asking in a neutral or friendly tone. He started rolling his eyes, insisting that I go, and getting really annoyingly aggressive and nagging about it.
All throughout this exchange, I kept talking to him in a more and more exasperated tone. Like, "Why are you yelling at me about going out with my friends?!" "I just said I don't feel like going." "I want to hang out with you or watch a movie! Why can't that be okay?" "I don't feel like going!" "Why are you being like this to me?" "Why are you pushing this so hard?" "Can you please let me make my own choices about what I would like to do?" "Why are you being so mean to me?" "I don't like the way you are talking to me."
Literally this went back and forth over multiple conversations for like 10-15 minutes.
Finally, I ****ing snapped. I started shouting. I don't remember which comment caused me to go over the deep end but the conversation just escalated. I felt like my answers were not being respected and I was being hounded about something for no reason. He just would not take my answer.
So, I shouted. I freaked out. As I was getting worked up, he just kept rolling his eyes, sighing to himself, shaking his head, and generally just acting like I was being a crazy witch. Which honestly just sent me over the edge. I just completely lost it. I yelled something like, "Why do you get to hound me over and over again, and then turn around and treat me like I'm being crazy when I react to how you've been treating me? I've been telling you for the last 10 minutes that I don't like how you're talking to me and I think you're being mean!"
And then I get stonewalled. He just tells me, "I will not speak to you while you are yelling at me."
So I'm trying to confront him about why he was being a jerk, why he was hounding me, and why he didn't listen to me for the previous ten minutes when it was clear I was upset about how he was acting, and he is just sitting there silent and occasionally rolling his eyes.
Like, what the ****?
I feel like I am taking crazy pills. I fully recognize that Yelling Is Bad. It's immature, it's not productive, it makes everything worse. I get it. I can't defend myself on that front. All I can say is, I was extremely upset and from start to finish did not feel like any of my thoughts or feelings were being considered at all, before or after the yelling.
So even after I freak out, he is just going to freeze me out. I called him out, saying how convenient it must be that he can ignore my thoughts and feelings for ten minutes and be confrontational but then just walk away from any of the repercussions of his ****ty behavior.
He would occasionally interject with, "You're the only one yelling right now," and "I never said you were crazy, these are all YOUR words" etc....like, I get that he didn't actually say those words, but when you are a jerk for ten minutes and ignore my pleas to stop, then act shocked at me getting very upset and act like I'm being completely unreasonable, then proceed to roll your eyes.....it kind of sends the message that you think my reaction is completely out of left field, unwarranted, unpredictable, disproportionate to the conversation, emotional--ie, crazy.
I know I've rambled on. At this point I FEEL crazy. I feel like I literally just hallucinated the entire ten minutes where he would not stop badgering me. That maybe I was just THINKING all of my replies about asking him to leave me alone and stop being so mean.
I just...I don't even know what to do. I am still so angry. I'm livid. I actually feel like I might scream or break something. I feel like an invisible person. I feel like he can't allow me to make my own choices, that my choices are not respected, and when my feelings are hurt and I'm getting upset, that doesn't matter either. And I feel like **** for losing my cool and yelling. But it makes me feel even angrier that even yelling to get my point across made him even less sympathetic to my feelings and perspectives. I guess I thought that by displaying my distress it would make him care? Idfk.
I joined dinner with the kids and sat there and said nothing. He pointedly did not look at my through the entire meal, didn't even look my direction (he had told me a few minutes prior that he didn't want to fight in front of the kids right before we called them in to eat, which is a fair point). I sat there crying and was completely excluded from dinnertime conversation.
I feel like he just wanted me out of the house because he is annoyed with my presence and didn't want to deal with me being in a bad mood.
Where do I go from here? How do I resolve this? I am so angry I can't even formulate a coherent sentence.

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tl;dr: Got into the stupidest fight ever because I didn't want to go see my friends, which escalated. I felt like my choices were not being respected, my feelings not being considered, and I snapped and started yelling. To which my husband then treats me like I'm a literal insane person and refuses to continue the conversation. Idefk.


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