The more time i spend alone and getting screwed with, the more of myself that dies inside. I'm afraid all my feelings are gonna die off eventually if things just keep going down the same desolate road

A kind bit of advice...ur jus 22. It gets better

Well, **** has been steadily getting worse in my life for the last 2 an a half yrs. Something good turns up an then to **** just as fast

Hhmmm Maybe a change of a lifestyle/activity could help. Don't isolate yourself, engage to sports, outdoor fun (hiking,trekking,hunting,fishing etc._) and develop your skills . As ram said, it gets better.

I've got a new job coming up but i know it'll turn to sh*t bc of something stupid like my last job, which i loved for awhile, an I've got a project vehicle to start working on this yr. That might help a little bit.

That would be very good for you the project vehicle. That is something that would take time and patience. Before you know it your mind will be occupied and you wont think of being isolated and lonely. Ram is right it only gets better. And as rainbow said some activities with friends will help. Good luck enjoy your project vehicle.

Itll keep me occupied or get me killed, 1 or the 2, cuz it's gonna be built to be fast.

What kind of car r u workin on

Actually its a gmc shortbed pickup truck. Lots of ppl have fast cars. We wanna have a fast truck instead

Cool chevy trucks r my favorite trucks