I am terrified of woman I can talk to them just fine . Every relationship I have had except a few where like being in prison im assuming because I wouldnt know . I was confined wasnt allowed to leave unless it was to work . My family wasnt allowed to visit unless it was planned weeks in advance . I cooked cleaned and was to take care of everything except shopping . Last time I was checked I can not make babies even though I always wanted children . I have dated women with children and grew very attached to them like they were my own only to be cheated on and kicked to the curb. I have been married twice and lost everything twice I have rebuilt myself financially emotionally more times than I can even think of . I am very goal oriented and know what I want out of life . I dont have a type I look for but do have one that I avoid thats the controlling type . This animal will not be caged again . So I will not say I do not have issues but I can say I have been able to rise above more things in my life than most could endure.

Feel free to ask me anything im an open book .

@justbehonestatleast33: I hear ya, about the control issues. I see ANY sign of it. ...& im out.

Thats the way I am . I learned when they are first spotted like reo speedwagon its time for me to fly . We know the longer we are in a controling environment the harder it is to get out .

@justbehonestatleast33: Myself, im way beyond the "victim "stage. We can really only control ourselves. Our actions & reactions. It's my reactions that get in the way now. I have zero tolerence. Im the most important I know. If anyone tries to convience me otherwise. I want nothing to do w/them. Why would I. ?

@Zilya777: I also know that trust is one of the hardest things to get back . When one is controlled they lose passion and who they once were when that happens all is lost . When I lost passion everything around me felt meaningless job friends family . When I say I had to rebuild it was everything cause everything was lost .

@Zilya777: I still beleive in the human spirit everyone has the ability to do right by others . Thing is if we are not carefull we ourselves become the controling person that we could not stand to be with . I have always stayed true with my morals I will not hit a woman and I will not control one . We are our own so we should stay as such .

@justbehonestatleast33: I have seen that "crossover "of control in people. Fortuately, I do not have it. The awareness of it, can prevent it. Trust well that has to be eared, just like respect. There is nothing automatic w/my emotions anymore. It is more like a score card card. :)