How should I react to my boyfriend watching a lot of porn while I?m next to him sleeping?

Me (19F) and my bf (21M) have been together a bit over a year and we moved in together 2 months ago. The subject of watching porn had came up a couple of times before and we always communicated how we felt about it. He said it was just to help him be in the mood and I don?t watch any.
Porn had never really bothered me because I didn?t think he watched a lot of it. When we have sex we often take videos for him to watch when he?s alone. He first asked me for the videos early in the relationship and it took a while before I accepted because I wasn?t so comfortable with it. So these videos are mostly on his phone and for his personal use.
Before, we worked the same hours and I was with him most of the day and knew he didn?t watch porn when we were together. I started feeling uncomfortable when I started school because I left early in the day and we didn?t have sex as much as when I worked. I would come home in the early after noon and the room would smell like *** and I would find wet tissues in the trash can almost every day. After a week or two of that I really started feeling uncomfortable because he was obviously jerking of every day when I left.
I?m really ashamed of that and wonder if I have a control problem or something because I left my Apple Watch recording in the room when I went to school and listen to it when I came back and sure enough he was masturbating. What bothered me was that I didn?t just hear him masturbating I heard him look for porn on the computer. I was sad and wondered why he didn?t use the videos of us. I wanted to know if it was like that every day and I recorded a couple more times and sure enough he was watching porn every day. Part of me felt betrayed because he was getting aroused at other bodies but the other thing that made me angry is because he originally took the afternoon shifts at work because he has a personal business he wants to run in the morning. At lest that?s what he told me but listening to everything he spent an hour average outside smoking then 30min jerking of. So he has his morning to jerk of and smoke and then I have to bring him diner at work or cook for him thinking it?s because of the business but it?s actually to watch porn alone.
I don?t really know anything about porn addiction but I?m starting to ask myself if he has one because every day seems a lot. Then the other day something I could have never imagined happened. I was sleeping next to him and I got woken up because the bed was shaking a bit and I understood he was jerking of. At first I didn?t think anything of it because sometimes he does that before we have sex and since I had just gone to sleep I thought maybe he wanted a quickly. but he actually finished alone. I was a bit disappointed and asked him if he didn?t want to **** me and he said ?don?t start? I was obviously shocked because his answer was dry and told him I could?ve help him and he said he just wanted to sleep so I let him be but I was really heart broken. That night I was unable to sleep because I was overthinking and crying. He eventually woke up we talked a bit I apologized a lot that night. I felt like it was my bad, I felt like I was overreacting and also he told me he jerked off the get the down and sleep better and I was keeping him from sleeping.
I kept apologizing the day after and we had a serious talk about porn and I told him I was really insecure and that it made me uncomfortable. To that he said I could work on my insecurities.
All of that leads to today when I was looking through his photos on his phone and saw a picture of a naked woman. It was a screen shot and it aligned with the time we went to sleep the day I woke up to him jerking off. The idea of porn did make me insecure and uncomfortable but he told me it was to get in the mood. However a picture saved in his camera roll of a very specific pose exposing a very specific part of the women?s body makes me sick. I am crazy or is a picture worse than porn like that wasn?t to get him in the mood he was liking this girls body right?!??
Also the part that truly makes me sick is that I was right next to him sleeping. He could?ve touched my I wouldn?t have cared he would?ve watched our videos I wouldn?t have cared but leaning that he was looking at another women with me right next is horrible.
I truly see a future with this man but writing all of this down makes me sick and feel disrespected. I truly want to know how other people would react because when we talk (and we usually have a great communication) about this I feel like i am overreacting, crazy, jealous and everything.
This has been really hard on me and I?m wondering if my point is valid / how I can communicate it to him.
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TL;DR; : I didn?t mind my boyfriend jerking off to porn until I realized how much he did and he did it while I was sleeping next to him. I feel jealous but he tells me I shouldn?t, I don?t know who?s right or wrong.


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