My Boyfriend Ruined My Milestone Celebration By Inviting His Friends Without Even Telling Me

TL, DR: My Boyfriend destroyed my special celebration by not telling me that he invited all his friends to crash my "best kept secret" spot on a forest that I visit. He let them eat all our food, and generally act like parasitea while completely ignoring my feelings. I had planned on a solo trip but he insisted and did this in return. He can't create his own career path and I've drawn the line between him andy finances.
My( f38) boyfriend ( m40) works a low paying job and he told me so from the beginning because he was concerned that I'm successful and financially independent and might want expensive dates. I reassured him that wasn't the case and we started our relationship.
What started as an emotional oasis for me slowly went south. I don't like that he cuts corners and I've caught him in lies about his degree. He lies constantly, to the point where I've told him he needs to get professional help. I work very hard for my goals and he only wants things but I see no sacrifice.He borrowed money from me, supposedly to pay utility bills but later on that day, spent it all in Hot Topic. I went speechless and made him return my money ASAP.
I recently won a huge contract. My steady work has been life changing but this contract is life changing for my entire family
I always wanted to achieve something nice and celebrate it by enjoying a trip to the forest, taking Tumblr-quality pictures and being immersed in nature. He pleaded with me to take him along but I wasn't sure. I caved on and now I'm regretting it.
For background, I own a company that is thriving. I'm blessed to enjoy a big salary and I'm getting around to renting houses on a monthly basis so that I can hop here and there. I use the temp moves to meet clients and close some deals, but not always. We'vr had problems because although I can easily pay for everything, he hardly takes out his wallet. It's not about paying, but equal effort. He could take me on a pizza date and I would be grateful. I noticed he tries to avoid working.
He got upset because I wasn't interested in his idea about him becoming my stay at home guy. We are not at that stage. I also don't like the way he treated me when his friends were around because his jokes were disrespectful.
So he begged me to take him on my forest adventure. I'd rented a van, got all out camping gear and had an amazing time taking pictures of puddles in grass, even creating special effects. That was until his friends arrived...I was never told he'd invited them. I was furious. He offered them our food, gave them our sushi and generally treated me like a piggy bank. I was so upset I went hiking alone and avoided everyone. I couldn't sleep because I was upset and he was refusing to talk to me, so I got up, collected my sleeping bag and other stuff and hit the road. I feel so dissatisfied with him and so disappointed in myself. He says I embarrassed him by acting rude towards his friends ( because I left) and greedy because I was angry they ate out food.
I'm feeling empty and unloved and I'm unsure if we should talk this over. I really want to disappear from his life and ghost but I don't know if I'll regret not being upfront.
I'm frozen right now. I can easily **** his life over but that's not gonna solve anything. I wanna focus on feeling emotionally stronger.
How can I help myself stop feeling used? This is having an impact on me and I would really appreciate some encouragement.


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