UPDATE: I [23F] am planning to move out from living with my boyfriend [24M] without telling him

Link to the original. Spoiler alert: this isn't a happy ending.
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I'd like to thank everyone who offered advice on the first post - it was really helpful and it helped me to see how things had to change.
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The good news is that a few days after I made that post my bf and I had a fight that made him realise that things weren't working. He was calm and understanding and accepted that I wanted to move out. We decided that we would remain in a relationship even when I'd moved out to see if it was salvageable at all. It was encouraging to see him accept it.
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Now for a lot of bad news. I lost my job (waitressing part time as I'm a student). Because it was the end of the academic year (April) I only had one student loan payment to receive, which meant that I needed a job really badly if I wanted to move out. I couldn't find anything (and was turned down for several jobs) at first. I sat my exams at the end of April and then began looking for a full time job. Anything - I just wanted to leave.
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I got a job at the beginning of May, but they didn't pay me and I had to leave. I was offered another job on the 14th, which I'm still at. Unfortunately, I was offered 40 hours a week but they're only giving me 12 hours a week and because I don't have a contract there's nothing I can do about it. I looked for another full time job and found nothing. I now have a second job where I work between 12-18 hours a week and I'm slowly saving up for a flat deposit.
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Or at least I was, until the girl I was looking for a flat with told me that she couldn't wait for me to get a deposit together anymore. This was four weeks ago and I can't find anyone else. I won't be able to even apply for rooms in flats until I have a deposit and first month's rent, which isn't easy as I'm still paying bills and rent here.
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I feel so hopeless. I feel so horrible all the time. I never want to be at home, I'd rather be anywhere else.
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The relationship, of course, did not improve - when I told him how upset I was about the hours at work he told me to suck it up or do something about it. He has no empathy at all. He keeps doing small things that make me want to curl up in a ball and give up. Like the other week we were going for a walk to a park and I thought we were going the wrong way. He huffed and puffed and went "FINE, We'll go YOUR way!" then he pushed me hard enough to make me stumbled for a bit. I know it's not abuse and things could be worse, but he does little things like that all the time and when I tell him that it hurt or I didn't like it he scoffs and either tells me that it didn't hurt or he acts like I'm just trying to cause drama.
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I honestly don't know what to do. I'm here until mid-September at the very earliest, and even then that's only if I can find a place to live.
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I don't know if you can give me advice, obviously it's not something that can be fixed with talking or something. But thank you for reading this. I feel better telling people.
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TL;DR - didn't move out, lost my job instead, now can't move out due to lack of money and a place to go and I feel stuck.


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