I’m pregnant but my baby isn’t there (Part 1)

I’m sure you all have looked at the title and thought “How the hell are you pregnant?â€. Trust me my husband said the exact same thing to me. The doctors, my mom, my friends all thought I was crazy. Hell I even thought maybe I was. Before I go on a tangent let me start from the beginning.
My name is Kate and my husband is Jakob. We are your average 26 year old couple. We met in college and fell for each other instantly. We’d stay up late planning our wedding, our family, how many kids we wanted, names , etc. He was my dream man through and through. So you’d imagine how we felt November 1st 2018, when we found out that we were having a baby. We had been trying for a while, honestly almost had given up, but it’d happened. Our dream had come true. After I told him we’d decided that we would set a doctors appointment just to get another test to make sure. So on November 15 we went my family doctor, Dr. Schulman. Dr. Schulman had cared after my family since my older brother Artie was born. The nurse called us back to the room, she checked my vitals and asked the routine questions. Dr. Schulman came in and we had some small talk while the nurse took my blood for the test. Since they didn’t have a lab there we had to wait a few days. We tried not to get too excited but how could we not?
Two days later, Dr. Schulman called with the two words we had longed to hear.
“You’re Pregnant!â€
Jakob and I were ecstatic.
“Omg thanks Doc...We can’t believe it finally worked!â€
Dr. Schulman laughed with us and ended the call. Over the next month Jakob would treat me like fragile crystal. I can’t lie I loved every single moment. My mom would come visit when Jakob was at work and help with the art class I taught. I began to by all the baby books I could find. I signed up for mommy forums and watched baby birthing videos. Everything seemed to be going unbelievably smooth. As the days passed I looked forward to my first sonogram. I’d get to see my baby and here their heartbeat for the first time.
Here it was. The big day. Sonogram Day. Jakob had to work that day and couldn’t call off so I had my best friend Carrie drive me. As we sat in the office, we looked and laughed at all the cute kids. Imaging what my kid would be like. Would they be rambunctious or more reserved? Either way I’d love my baby. In the midst of my thoughts Dr.Schulman called me in the room. She checked my weight and vitals, all which were perfect. We walked into the sonogram room, and my heart began to beat faster. This was it. I climbed up on the table and laid back while holding Carrie’s hand. She squeezed my hand slightly reassuring me. Everything was going smoothly, Dr. Schulman had began to put the gel on my stomach, then using the little wand. She looked at me smiling
“Are you ready?â€
Without hesitation I replied “hell yeah let’s see this future troublemakerâ€
I turned my head to look at the screen and it looked strange. It didn’t look like all the other sonogram pictures I had seen online. I tried not to panic I mean maybe the baby was lower. For a few moments there was thick silence. Then I heard it. A small thumping sound. It was my baby’s heartbeat. Dr. Schulman looked at me and smiled but something was wrong. Still moving the wand around my stomach, I got the nerve to ask her.
“What is it? What’s wrong?â€
Dr.Schulman paused for a moment, placing the wand down she removed her glasses before speaking.
“I hear a heart beat....but I don’t see your baby. Normally if the baby didn’t show up or if I didn’t hear a heart beat I’d say that it’s a false pregnancy, or maybe there is something wrong. But you’re hormone levels are great, we’ve done the pregnancy tests and everything looks good. But to hear a heart beat and see no signs of a baby? I’m flabbergasted. I can say maybe it’s a technological error. So what I’m going to do is switch you to another room and attempt the sonogram again. Just to be safe.â€
Carrie and I looked at each other confused as hell. How could this happen? What is going on! So many things were going through my head. Carrie cleaned off my stomach and helped me down. I was worried, sad,scared, all at once. I mean to even have the doctor at a lost for words? I’m 20 weeks no way I’m the world should my baby not be able to be seen. Before I knew it we had made it to the next room, as the minutes passed and I stared at the screen. My heart dropped. It was the same as the last one. I started to cry because this was something we both wanted. What did I do wrong? Did I kill our baby? Was our baby sick? Did it exist at all?
Everything was a blur from that moment on, I remember telling Jakob and him being confused. He thought it was something I had done. We were both in no place to discuss it properly. The days became blurred. I had tried to research it. I tried talking to my mom about it. I was depressed. I didn’t want to do anything. My dreams turned into nightmares as I began to blame myself. I couldn’t make sense of it all. Then one night I had a dream. By then I was about 6 1/2 months along. In the dream I was walking barefoot in the woods in a all white night gown. The air was crisp against my skin. The smell was fresh, like spring time. As I got closer to the middle of woods, I spotted 12 women dancing naked around a 13th person laying in a table. There were flowers in their hair and around their ankles and wrists. Each woman had a long tattoo that started on her shoulder and ended down to her foot. I had stopped walking and hid behind a dead tree trunk. I couldn’t understand the language but it seemed as tho they were chanting something. I couldn’t see if the person on the table was alive or dead so I attempted to get closer. With each step it became clear who was on the table...it was me. My stomach looked as if I were 7 months pregnant. I saw the stomach move the louder the woman got. Before I knew it I was standing almost 10 ft away from them when a elk stepped out from the forest, he began to shift into a man. Frightened I tried to run and stepped on a twig snapping it. At the sound all heads turned towards me and one woman stepped out from the group, with one hand reaching toward me. She spoke three words.
“Soon you’ll understandâ€
At that moment I fainted in front of her, waking up in reality. Sitting up in a hurry I noticed something different. My stomach had grown, and I felt my baby move.


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