I(30m) hurt my penis in an accident and 1.5years later my gf(30f) left me. Am I completely screwed to find love again?

This is a complex and long story that I intend to keep short. I hurt my penis during sex with my now ex gf(plus probably a few other things as a perfect storm). I think this caused a lot of guilt for her. I never blamed her, but it was a fact that the injury happened during sex. I still harbor no ill feelings towards her and how this happened and don't think it was her fault AT ALL. All I know is that your **** is NOT invincible and you got to be careful with it. Soon after the injury I developed Peyronie's disease and was not able to have sex anymore. Though I was always very happy to go down on my partner I think she became just totally turned off by the situation and basically didn't allow me to touch her for about a year and a half. It affected me pretty poorly because one I felt worthless that I couldn't get her off in any way, and two that my once beautiful penis was not in shambles for the foreseeable future. My self esteem became destroyed which made me feel super anxious and un-confident in my personal interactions. I really hated myself. I however did love her so much and tried to push through the best I could. Finally, it ended a few months ago at her wish. I am still very devastated as I planned to marry her and really loved her more than anyone I've ever been with. I've worked on bettering myself and I am undergoing treatment for my problem. I am in high spirits even though some days are very hard on me and difficult for me to get going.
It is possible that in a year or so I might see results and be able to be in a sexual relationship again, though not as I was before. There are also a lot of great tech advancements on the horizon. I have a high sex drive and I have a lot of happiness in giving oral to my partner. In fact, I used to do it all the time sometimes for an hour or more prior to sex when I had an straight penis.
When I'm ready to date again, how do I even begin to talk about this to someone? I'm terrified of being in another relationship where someone just gives up on me again. I feel like this whole experience has been so traumatizing that I don't even want to start. I'm also not over my ex. She deserves to be happy with or without me. I might want to just be alone, but on the other hand I know that I have a lot of worth and that I have a lot to offer a partner.
What to do?
TLDR: I hurt my penis. Got Peyronie's disease. GF left me after 6 years. Afraid to open up to anyone relationship wise so I don't get burned again. How do I cope with this? Should I just be alone?


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There's a pic of that type of injury I found.....let's just say...90° angle.....Right turn Clyde

It looked like a walrus

@Critter1211: I now know why the phrase "get bent" is an insult lol

@Sparky: I have a high sex drive but honestly I never have large orgasms or any atall with sex. I rather finish the job by myself after the guys done I have to hump something to achieve that lol.. so if I dated a guy like that I would just hump him and *** within 20seconds-2minites... You have an injury a person can't make fun of you for that if they do they we're to shallow and insensitive to begin with and not worth your time in the first place! Some women need penis or male genital like object inside her to achieve orgasm (opposite of me) so it may be hard for some to deal with that kind of thing! I honestly would kind of blame her if she was ontop but only in my head not to her face and not hold it against her it was an accident! Anyways maybe she felt guilty plus less intimacy because of the injury especially if your want was as beautiful as you say it was. I think if you start dating you don't tell her at first let her get comfortable with you and get to know who you are waiting for sex in any situation is messed so nobody is putting "on an act" till true colors come out. It's better to be more like friends then work your way up from there then after a few days, texts, phone calls exct then tell her you need to tell her something that's very personal and kind of embarrassing! If you tell her and she dumps you she was looking for a piece of meat to play with in the first place or can't deal with situation some people are just at a loss for words and may not know how to react or deal with certain situations. You don't have to give up dating because of this but you do have to move on! If she didn't want to have sex, oral sex or even kiss then she was getting it from somewhere don't get upset with me but if she wouldn't do anything with you for over a year she had to have had something somewhere! If she left you it may have been because she couldn't be in a relationship with no sex and didn't want to hurt you more buy stringing you along maybe she choice the "side piece" after long debate possibly she fell in love with the other guy who really knows! Then again we should never assume things and jump to conclusions it's not like I know her so I couldn't say for sure what was going on in her head! Anyways you shouldn't hang on to someone that would cut you off after not even wanting to be intamit in any way shape or form for so long! If I was her I would have dealt with it! I'd love to have a guy that really loves me like that! I've been masturbating since I was 9 so I'm used to it didn't have sex till I was 21 so sex is still kind of new anyways. For 3 years I've been having sex 1-6 times in a whole month and recently no sex for 2months while he was cheating on me. (been with a jerk for 5years but after car crash he's hardly been sexually into me plus he has very low sex drive).. I would love to have a down to earth caring man especially a guy willing to go down on me for more then 2minutes hehe. Anyways I wish you the best and good luck!