Me [27/F] with my Boyfriend [27/M] on and off 5yrs, thinks selling weed is our "Mr. Fix-It" to all problems.

This is actually a 3yr update to the following link:
https://www.reddit.com/r/relationshi..._and_off_5yrs/
He came out as a heroin addict to me and I tried to get him the help he wanted, he actually didn't want it as much as he said he did. So, after some more drama of either him or I not wanting to let go, we finally climaxed and he decided to throw in the towel. He chose to not come home anymore. I packed his things personally so he didn't take the expensive stuff and I got evicted because I didn't make enough to afford the apartment on my own (the landlord kicked me out as soon as I told them that one of us moved out, gave me 1month to GTFO). I got evicted on my birthday. I was penniless and was lucky to find a place to live where the landlord gave me time to get the money together to pay him a month in. Major depression set in as I tried to keep working overnight, be overwhelmed by bills, mend a broken heart and decided to go back to school finally. He did however tried to make it back into my life.... TWICE.
He finally went through rehab and got clean as well found a job. He wanted to show me how much he's changed and wanted to make it work. Each time I decided to somewhat give me a chance, he chose to chase after another female. It was my final straw. He repeatedly showed me that he was not willing to give me the best of him, he wanted to give that to someone else. I was just his safety net. I blocked him, his family and any and all friends of his. I wanted nothing more with his life in any shape or form. Oddly enough, 2yrs later, he saw me at a bus stop and we began talking again. We are only friends now. As an ex, I hate him to this day, I have emotional scars but as a friend, I miss the good old times and the jokes. I will admit I get a sense of petty revenge whenever I see him **** up with his new girlfriend(s) (he can't seem to keep them lol), and I do believe he knows this too (I do very little to contain my laughter). He has apologized to me about everything and, although I don't fully forgive him, I don't need to hang on to the negative feelings. For my sanity and sake. I will forever and always love him but I need someone who knows how to make me happy; he's not that person. Took a long time, but I have finally come to those terms and I am at peace.
So, where am I today? Single as a dollar bill, still living alone, and almost done with school! I have one more class until I get my associates (honestly, I'm upset at myself for taking so long). I got fired from my overnight job on my birthday (LMAO) and found a day job (in 3 weeks, how about that?!) that pays a wee bit better but much easier to do (it's a desk job!) and puts me in the direction I want. I will admit that dating is not easy for me and I have a hard time giving men a chance because I just feel like my time is being wasted all the time but I am soooooo much happier than before. I have to lose weight still lol but I feel like I can do whatever I want now. And that's the important thing.

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tl;dr: I got dumped by the emotional and financial baggage that was my ex, moved on and fixed a lot of things in my life. Relapsed 2 more times onto him until I finally gained control and said **** that ****. Still room for improvement but hey, I no longer feel trapped in a loveless household.


Source.

Point of this was.....? It's been 3 years, time to move on

These people can't. They're attention wh0res who need some kind of weird, online affirmation to feel good about themselves.