I block myself cause instead of someone saying its ok...we will take our time and work through things im here for you they just leave..... I have a history i have baggage i carry with me everyday i need someone who is willing to help me unpack them not leave me stranded and noone can do that so another night of tears another night of pain its nothing new to me.. I need the one.. The one to heal me and fix my broken heart to wipe my tears and take away all the sadness and pain but maybe another day another time another life...

@babibluez91: we all have baggage we carry along the way but when we get weighed down its harder to move forward emotionally we begin to get consumed by the **** piled on us by others but there comes a time when we deside weather we will let the past contol our future or if we are ready to let go of the bull**** and stand up again leave with what we still have emotionally put on the gloves ready to fight the good fight then we allow ourselves to live to love once more....push through put on a smile and watch the future come to life

I have to agree with truehrt4u on this i have been afriad to start and keep a relationship for the past ten years because of the baggage that i carry. I am a diabetic and have been since i was 16 and everytime i think i have found that special someone and i tell them about being a diabetic they atop talking and texting me. So i have been trying to cover up the pain of rejection do to a health condition that is out of my control. I put on a smile every day and i have to tell myself that maybe today will be the day that i will find the one that will accept me as a whole and not judge me on my baggage.

@carl87: That's horrible. Why would someone not want u cuz of diabetes? Its not Aids or anything. Shame on them

@Briteeyes: i think you just slighted victims of aids (and other STDs.

Most girls i know want a guy with a car, a job (i can understand that one) but for me its two things I've never had, so not much hope for me on the love front :(

Std's are spread from one to another, diabetes isn't. So I could see women walking away due to a STD

@Briteeyes: but modern medicine has guaranteed us immunity from even the once-deadly aids: should you however be infectfed with the virus now, yet you can live a long and healthy life.

@Nilthtimer: I personally still wouldn't want it given to me or for me to give it to someone. Its a dearly disease that u suffer when affected with it. We have medicine for cancer to but that doesn't mean u live a healthy life when u have it

@Nilthtimer: in brites defence std's aids and hiv are all diseases diabetes is not it can not be passed on just by touching someone that has it unlike the diseases listed above sure there are medicine for people with aids and other stds but the fact is that they are not actually cured and can still give another person but diabetes does not work that way it can be past only by genetics or a person gets it by having poor eating habits.